Thinking More About Feminization and Its Complexity
November 2, 2008
I wrote a post a couple months back about feminization, asking what the attraction is to it. Not a question asked in a negative tone, or me trying to say there is something wrong with it, or that I can’t see why anyone would be into it. I asked because I can imagine that the reasons are very diverse, covering not just guys into feminization in the sense of wanting to be female, but also those who want to be forced into it as more a masochistic turn on.
I think it’s obviously a complex subject, but also one where there is some conflict. For some, the attraction to feminization is liberating, nothing negative at all about it, but rather something very positive that’s longed for and healthy. While for others the attraction is rooted in masochism, with forced feminization, crossdressing and forced bisexuality feeding a sexual want to be abused and embarrassed. Something negative in the sense that the forced act is perceived as something shameful, but not at all negative in the end since it brings intense sexual enjoyment.
The contrast between the two I would think somewhat insulting to those who see feminization as a release from being trapped in a body they don’t feel is right for them. The idea that someone else engages in a mock version of what you are, and for what matter what you love, because they see it as disgustingly shameful and actually get sexually excited over that idea… I’m sure cross dressers, sissies and those actually going through feminization have learned to grow a thick skin, but still. I don’t think anyone would like the idea of even a beloved hobby, let alone a lifestyle, being seen as a bad joke to be engaged in only for the enjoyment of male humiliation.
Personally, I’m not into feminization. I don’t see myself as a girl inside and I have no desire to dress or act like one. I’m not attracted to guys either… though I’m sure my dwelling on this subject will make some wonder if I’m in some sort of denial LOL. It’s not that.
As a submissive male, I can understand the powerful effect of something like forced bi. Add to it forced feminization, and while dressing like a girl might not itself turn on the slave, the effect of being so “owned” by another person that she can transform you not just from free to property, but from male to female, is very powerful.
I have to say that being made to dress like a woman – really any degree of forced feminization – would be extremely humiliating to me. I mean that as no offense to the sissy crowd, it’s just that I am a man. A sissy sees himself as herself; not a man but a woman, so there is nothing humiliating there and that is “her” choice. I don’t see myself that way, but as someone experiencing male slave training, being so transformed would have a tremendous psychological effect. Female domination of a whole other kind, providing a deeper sense of objectification and loss of individuality through both embarrassment and replacement of identity with that chosen by another. Add forced bi to the feminization and the “dress” becomes more than just a surface coating but something extremely real. Being forced to be the “girl” in a bisexual act with another man, or a dominant woman armed with a strapon, is a level of vulnerability and submission men normally never face in sex.
Not done with this yet, I’ll post more later -
BTW, here’s a link to a Free Forced Bi Audio that Domina Amanda recorded.
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Domina Amanda – cruel femdom of her own dark design
June 17, 2008
As I mentioned in my previous post, Domina Amanda worked for almost three years in the private NYC femdom dungeon of her dominatrix friend, first as an apprentice, but quickly as an accomplished and respected dominatrix in her own right. While she very much enjoyed her time there, and was extremely close to her friend and employer on both a professional and personal level, after so long a time in one place, she decided to set out on her own.
With the blessing and backing of her friend, she decided to open her own, small private dungeon, dedicated to her further exploration of femdom BDSM. Not a large house, or even a private dungeon like the one she had previously worked for, which though not as large as the more public facilities, still had a regular dominatrix staff (of about half a dozen in this case), but instead a smaller place that would cater only to her whim, with her the single dominatrix presiding over the entire dungeon. The only others there would be three personal slaves, one female and two male, that she owned at the time.
(What I have been told of these three slaves – One was a sissy maid. Domina Amanda has a preference for well trained sissy maids and the specific duties they are suited for. Over the years she has constantly kept at least one in her service. The next was a very well built bisexual male sex slave that served a variety of purposes within the dungeon, including that of a bodyguard. He also lived there. The last was a female sex slave that was a pet to Domina Amanda at the time. She was the personal slave companion of the dominatrix and often assisted her in femdom sessions. She was also extremely devoted to the fetish of ass worship and eagerly displayed her respect for her owner through it.)
Often when such a transition occurs in the professional BDSM community, they are the result of a conflict arising between dominant personalities, with the ensuing struggle leading either to dismissal, or a fracturing within the femdom dungeon, with a portion going off to found their own. From what has been said by Domina Amanda, there was no falling out or breakup between the dominatrix pair, and they are still close now, with their friendship and attraction to one another remaining essentially unchanged (her dominatrix friend is a lesbian, though female domination is something she enjoys with both sexes). Domina Amanda simply wished to have her own femdom dungeon, a place that would be a reflection of her personality and ideas, and her friend not only understood this, but encouraged it. Besides also, dominant personalities, by their nature, have a want to build and rule their own homes.
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It was at this time – in her late teen years when she was getting more active in BDSM and going out more frequently to BDSM clubs – that Domina Amanda became close friends with a professional dominatrix who was working out of her own private femdom dungeon in Manhattan. Acquaintance grew quickly into friendship as the two began spending more time with one another, both publicly in the NYC femdom scene, and privately. Domina Amanda has stated their relationship was in part sexual, but that no roles of domination and submission were drawn between them, though they did at times include one or more submissive partners. Respect was something the two had for one another right away, but they were never girlfriends – the lesbian sex they had was simply them enjoying their friendship in another way (Domina Amanda was also involved with multiple male and female sex slaves then, much the same as she is now).
While truly dominant women can at times come into conflict (strong personalities have a tendency to eventually clash), these two fit well together, and only became closer for their shared views. So much so that an apprenticeship at her femdom dungeon was offered to Domina Amanda by her more experienced dominatrix companion (her age seems to be between five and ten years older than that of Domina Amanda), which was accepted.
The two stayed together for well over two years after that, Domina Amanda working in her mentor’s femdom dungeon as an apprentice and then full dominatrix, building her own substantial following in the process (Domina has already told some femdom stories about this time period on her website). Female domination and male submission (along with that of submissive lesbian and bisexual females), is and has always been something Domina Amanda has taken for granted, carrying herself in a way that clearly reflects this. Having been given the right outlet and connections within the NYC BDSM community, her natural tendencies had the freedom to grow, and fully explore the fetish possibilities femdom offers.
Her presence in the local BDSM community grew greatly during these years, though in keeping with her personality, she was far less flamboyant than is typical of a dominatrix who gains a great degree of notoriety quickly. This, if anything, only solidified the respect she was held in, and opened more doors to her since the quiet confidence (if at times accented by a cocky, sarcastic attitude) and solid self-assurance she epitomizes, is something appreciated by most true dominants.
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Now that the opening blog post is done with, I thought I’d continue this male slave offering by saying a little about the lovely young lady this is dedicated to. Most of what I write here (and in the next few posts) can be read in much greater detail on her own blog – Femdom Diary of Domina Amanda, but I’ll try provide a summary here, including little bits of additional information I know to be true (nothing on this site is written without her permission and approval – I will not post rumor).
Domina Amanda is a 25 year old bisexual dominatrix originally from Manhattan, New York who is currently living just outside San Francisco. She is deeply involved in BDSM on both a professional and personal level, meaning that while she has worked as a professional dominatrix conducting femdom sessions with select male slave clients, this subject is also a central part of her private life. For her, female domination isn’t a role taken, but a lifestyle, with BDSM simply being one way for her to enjoy who she is. Confident, intelligent and confrontational, she is a true dominant personality and a clear example of female superiority in its most undeniable and desirable form.
As you can see by her picture she is very beautiful, but she is also very tall for a woman – 5′ 10″ barefoot. She has long, solid black hair that is thick and perfectly straight. Her body is thin and firm, graceful and athletic – she loves to dance both for fun and exercise, and has trained for many years in a variety of styles.
Her wardrobe displays her partiality for femdom fetish clothing and styles influenced by this form – corsets, tight dresses, large belts, leather & latex, skirts, stockings, high heels, gloves and boots are only a hint of the temptation to be found. This isn’t her dominatrix collection, or what she wears strictly for femdom sessions or BDSM events. Domina Amanda’s daily dress reflects her personality both inside and outside of the dungeon. Like I said, female domination and superiority are who this woman is.
Her eyes are hazel and piercing, seductive but with an intimidating effect, which when taken with her personality and femdom sexual desires, are part of why friends call her “the Demoness” or “Dark Seductress”.
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I won’t bore you all by talking about myself. I am a male slave, my name is unimportant and I doubt there is much any of you really want to know about me, excepting perhaps that I greatly enjoy BDSM and female domination.
But I’m not the reason why you came here. The title of this blog is probably what made you visit, and since it’s focused on Domina Amanda, I can only assume you either know of her and want to know more, or have heard of her and are desire to learn about what you’ve been missing. If not, then perhaps like me femdom BDSM is your thing, in which case I can promise you that you’ve found a truly beautiful and powerful dominatrix that will only intrigue and excite you… perhaps even too much so, for I am not the first to learn that this woman can easily become an obsession. Whatever the reason for your visit, instead of rambling about my insignificant male slave self, I intend to put the focus where it belongs right from the start.
This site exists as a display of my adoration of Domina Amanda and the demonstration of true female domination, superiority and perfection that is her life. On it I hope to share what I have learned about her, the experiences I have had under her control, and femdom BDSM fantasies inspired by her. I cannot claim to be her male slave, but I am devoted to her and I aspire to her ownership. I have enjoyed many a femdom BDSM session with her, and continue to seek to submit myself to her female domination however I am allowed. It is my hope that this blog may be found pleasing to her, and that she will allow this male slave to continue to serve her in ever more submissive ways.
And with that my attention will turn fully to where it belongs, on the subjects of female domination, male slavery and submission, femdom BDSM, and this beautifully cruel dominatrix who is named Domina Amanda.
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done to me. To me, what’s down there seems too fragile, and yet I have witnessed serious femdom CBT before, and the capacity for the male genitalia to take punishment is beyond what one would expect. Maybe it’s that sense of threat and impossibility that gets a rise out of me, I don’t know but I like it and admit the BDSM fetish attracts me. The thought of being her helpless bondage slave gets my heart pounding. Think too much and my head spins. But I think that if I ever met Domina Amanda I would coward out. I know she is coming back to NYC this Fall, and will be making an appearance at the femdom dungeon of that dominatrix friend of hers I’ve written about here.
